I guess now I’m just something of a skeptic because it’s the safest way to be. I’ll keep living life, and I’ll be fine in the end. I always am. But it’s another layer to break through later. Another piece of protection from getting hurt yet again sometime down the road. Thing is, it’s my own fault. I let myself get into a situation that was risky. We’re friends, and maybe one day we’ll be good friends again. Only time will tell.

Select lyrics from “Don’t Stay”
Linkin Park, Meteora

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go

[Chorus:]
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone

Another semester is over. I have now been at Taylor for 3.5 years. Where does the time go? All I have left is j-term and second semester, and then…

Well, that’s the problem. I have no idea what I’ll be doing or even where I’ll be come June. Kinda scary, but kind of exciting to know that it’ll be a fresh start.

Tomorrow I head down to Indy, and then from there Andrew and I will be heading out to Massachusetts to spend the holidays with Abby and Dan. Should be a good time. It’ll be a good change of scenery, that much is certain. But just like time does, it will pass and I’ll be back here once more.

That’ll be good too though. I’m beginning to realize the importance of relationships, and I will try not to take the rest of the time I have here for granted. Oh, if only I had figured that out sooner! Anyways, I have friends I need to get in touch with and no one ever reads this anyhow, so I’ll stop.