…doesn’t understand, and it never will. and it’s alway simple in movies when things work out and everyone’s happy and somehow being yourself is the only way you should be. but that’s not the case here when things are the way they are and no one can magically make them like they are in the movies. so i just sit knowing *that* but not knowing where things will end up or how, or when, or why. and i’m openminded but it’s oh so hard because i don’t wanna be openminded. others are smiling and writing and thinking and dreaming and i’m doing nothing because as far as i can tell there’s nothing to be done but sit. so time goes by and memories are made with the way that things are. but i’m sitting, i’m stagnant, has time run out? are movies all fake, and the time spent dreaming just a waste? i hope not.

oh, and i filed my tax return tonight. nice. i also bought a car today.