I’m more in contact with friends than I have been in a long time. Things are going really well, and yet I have such a poor outlook on life. I’m constantly thinking that none of my plans will work out in the end. I have this fear that I’ll end up a single and alone, living a pointless life of going to work and coming home to nothing.

I have so many blessings in my life. I’ve gone to a great Christian school for the past four years, and I’m leaving with a good education. I have an awesome family, and friends that really care about me. I have Jesus Christ. I had an incredible experience growing up in Africa. I talk to friends on the phone for hours and it’s awesome.

Even things for next year a looking good. I don’t have a job lined up, but I’m hoping to be near my best friend - and we haven’t lived near each other for the past five years. What more could I really want?

Why do I feel the way I do?